Title: Sinful
Author: Michi
Theme: Secrets
Genre: Romance/ drama
Version: Manga/ Anime
Rating: R

 

( Sinful )

 

Forever is a long time to waste.


Her fingers trembled on the door handle, pale and bright against the dark wood, and she hestiantly yanked upon it. Her mind screamed at her to turn away, to run back into the darkness that she was born from. After all, it was where she belonged anyway. A creature with fangs, drinking and feasting on the blood of the human race night after night, darkness was the only welcoming aspect of such a life. At least there she couldn't see their faces and the pain in their eyes as their life was slowly drained away to keep her pitful self in existance. Shuddering, the blond woman entered the sanctuary, steps dragging on the carpet as she made her way to a place where things like herself were supposed to never go.
It was quiet in the church, empty pews and battered pray books were all that greeted her keen teal hues. If she had breath, the woman would have surely started to hyprvehnilate. She hadn't felt so frightened in over three hundred years, but in the place where God called home such a immortal creature was like a child being scolded by a parent for beating up on younger siblings. Her tall frame sank into the hard wooden seat rows back from the center of the church, eyes taking in the sullen figure of christ upon the cross, rose petals scattered at his feet from the latest mass. A single candled burned brightly upon the podium, its flame ghostly in the near darkness of this place.
Oh how she didn't belong here, she wasn't human and hadn't felt a heart beat for centuries...did she honestly think that a god would take mercy on her now? Haruka had killed, sucked the life from mere innocent babies to saturate her own hunger and need for blood...how could she be forgiven for that? Numbly, the vampire sank upon the kneeler and hands clasped in front of her and tears strangely prickling at her eyes. It was ironic that she cried now when she hadn't shown a ounce of caring for those lives she had stolen...but religion makes one humble...regret only feeds the fire.

" Forgive me...for taking her life..." She whispered, the tears stumbling down her white cheeks, falling into the hollow cheek bones and her chin. It was amaxing how one life...the life of that ocean spirit could make her feel so unclean...so horrible. She licked her lips, tasting the last traces of the innocent teen's blood, she shivered. The only person who never saw her as a monster...who loved her and she had taken her life.

For that Haruka prayed for salvation for the woman she had turned into one of her own.

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" I know...the past is done, still doesn't stop me from wishing though...I'am human after all." Arms wrapped around herself tightly, bare skin rubbing against the ruby cloth of her blouse, crumpling her bow beneath. She felt her heart beat faster and she took a deep breath as Haruka told her she would be paired with the senshi of fire instead of wind. She would be lying to herself if she didn't think she was slightly disappointed, but she didn't mind Rei. She was a strong partner and they could play off each other as they had in the past. " Thank you for telling me, but if they were sent to the computer...why are you really here now Haruka-chan? I would have returned and gotten them anyway...so what brought you to the pool locker room tonight?" She inquired softly, blue hues focusing on the blonde's own teal ones, searching them for something she would never find...and she knew it.

 


Slowly, she stood and brushed her teal strands back behind the barrier of her small ears and her feet carefully began to pick their way across the slippery tile of the poolside. Her breath was even again, her heart slowing to a natural rhythm in her chest, the only sound coming from her feet padding against the dripped water from her body. Her hand reach out and slender fingers gripped the soft yellow fabric of her towel to her chest, gently beginning to rub away moisture from her arms and legs before being tossed upon her head and scrubbed lightly against sea green locks. She sighed and wrapping the towel about her shoulder blades, started toward the locker room to change, teal hues blinking quickly to push sleep away. 

How late was it even...she didn't even know..did she care? The overhead light flicked on as she slipped quietly through the empty locker room and stopped near her blue locker, her digits pulling open the metal door with a creak that echoed in the quietness. Her heart ached, Haruka would often come in with her and the two would talk nonsense and flirt while she peeled the bathing suit away and through her clothes on once more. She missed her being there. She pulled the bathing suit off and slipped into her normal clothes, a simple plaid skirt and short sleeved red blouse, the cloth rough and warm upon her skin. She straightened the plaid hem and bow gently and shook her teal hair free from the collar. Slipping into her flats barefoot, she padded to the mirror with a hair brush in hand and dark head band in the other. 

She shivered as she glimpsed her own reflection in the mirror, wavy teal locks and oceanic hues looked back at her and she wanted to break the smooth, shiny surface with her hand. It reminded her too much of the past...sometimes she swore she still saw the monster inside.

Saisho ni mitsumeta ano toki kaze no kaori ga shita
Natsukashii egao
Fushigi na chikara ni yobarete meguriaeta imi ni
Kidzuite hayaku hiroi sora no shita zutto sagashiteta
Atsui anata no hitomi wo

When I first gazed at you, the scent of wind filled the air
That dear smiling face
We were called to meet by a strange force, and realizing the
Significance of it, I had been searching below the spacious sky
For your warm eyes

*Kono unmei wa utsukushiku
Watashi no namida wo kagayakaseru kara
Donna omoide ga hikitomete mo
Mou nido to furimukanai sonna ki ga shita

*Because this fate so beautifully
Makes my tears shine with brilliance
Whatever memories that I may keep with me
I had the feeling that I will not turn away again

Anata ni nobashita yubisaki fukai yami no iro ni
Somerarete yuku no
Tsumetai arashi ni mezameru tooi yume ga itsuka
Honto ni natte mo
Eranda subete wo shinjiru koto ga
Asu wo kaeteku chikara ne

The fingertip I reached out to you is becoming dyed in the
Deep color of darkness
Even if my distant dream of waking up in a cold storm
Someday comes true
Believing in everything that I have chosen
Is the power to change tomorrow

Kono unmei wa uruwashiku
Watashi no suhada wo kagayakaseru kara
#Donna kanashimi ga oshiyosete mo
Mou nido to kizu tsukanai anata ga ireba

Because this fate so magnificently
Makes my skin shine with brilliance
#Whatever sadness may come toward me
I will not be hurt again, if I have you with me

Anata ga ireba anata ga ireba

If I have you with me, if I have you with me